Jonathan Ferrell: Supposed to Die? (Participation)

Jonathan Ferrell: Supposed to Die?

By Jamilah Lemieux News and Lifestyle Editor

Originally published at Ebony.com

Last week, a male friend of mine ran down a list of his enviable accomplishments (awesome career, nice house, two beautiful sons) and ended with “and I’m not supposed to be alive.” While I initially found last part to be a bit of an exaggeration—most of our men do live to be in their 30s, so getting there isn’t rare—the events that took place in Charlotte just days later cause me to rethink my response. There may be more survivors than casualties, one might say that America is working diligently to kill our men.

Jonathan Ferrell was 24 years old. A former Florida A&M football player, he recently moved to North Carolina and was engaged to be married.

Now there will be no wedding, no smiling pictures of him celebrating his milestone quarter century birthday next month.

Ferrell wrecked his car early Saturday morning—to the point where he apparently had to exit from the back window in order to escape. As most of us would, he ran to a nearby home for assistance. When the resident came to the door and saw him, she triggered her safety alarm, called the police and reported an attempted break-in.

And as Jonathan Ferrell ran in the direction of the responding officers—presumably seeking their aid— one of them opened fire and shot him to death. Officer Randall Kerrick has been arrested (and released on bond), charged with voluntary manslaughter. In a statement released late Saturday, authorities said the initial investigation found that “the shooting of Mr. Ferrell was excessive… Officer Kerrick did not have a lawful right to discharge his weapon during this encounter.”

The fact that there have been charges filed at all and admittance from the department that this was an unjustified shooting is a departure from the timeline that follows the typically state-sanctioned murder of Black people at the hands of the police. But the particular horror of this crime reveals another layer of our dystopian relationship to law enforcement.

Our men cannot run to the police for help, because most police aren’t capable of aiding them. Our men may not run from the police in fear, for a Black man with his back turned is no less dangerous. Our men can’t hold arms akimbo or search for their IDs or cell phones or freedom papers to prove that they are, in fact, worthy of NOT BEING KILLED FOR EXISTING.

Our men cannot run to the police for help, because most police aren’t capable of aiding them.

Their only option, if you can call it that, is to be still. And even stillness isn’t foolproof. Nothing is failsafe when dealing with people who see you as a problem before you can even so much as part your lips to say, “Help,” or “I didn’t do anything” or “F*ck you.”

For even a stock-still Black man is likely to pose a threat to the sort of itchy trigger fingered cops who killed Sean Bell, Amadou Diallo, Oscar Grant… and the wannabe cop who killed Trayvon Martin. In the presence of someone like Jonathan Ferrell, these gunmen have assessed that some White woman, some piece of property, some unspoken law—the “Don’t Be Black Around Here, Boy” code—was somehow threatened. And these armed cowards proceed with hate. With complete prejudice. With the protection and permissiveness of the law on their sides.

I can’t pretend to know firsthand the psychological weight this condition places upon Black men—nor do I suggest that the relationship between Black women in the police isn’t contentious and often marked by abuse and contempt—but I do feel the trauma of being incapable of protecting my people. That which hurts the men hurts the women. (The reverse should also be true.) The widespread sense of despair, the toll on our individual and collective self-esteem that comes with news of such a tragic loss of life, is choking. How much longer can we live without air?

There needs to be a major shift in the way American police officers are trained, and there needs to be particular attention paid to teaching them—be they White, Black or otherwise—how to serve and protect Black people with the understanding that we are citizens, not suspects by de facto standard. This is the only thing that will affect a needed shift in the dynamic between Blacks and law enforcement. Not by simply educating Black people to be “good,” but by training and retraining officers to deal with us properly and enforced consequences for those who don’t.

I say the above in earnest, while also knowing that this sort of cultural shift won’t occur in my lifetime. And I say it while wondering why it had to take a crime this horrible to offer even a glimmer of hope (is there any “hope” in a world where 24-year-olds are killed for asking for help?) that there might finally be a successful prosecution of an officer for taking a Black life. And, frankly, I say it unconvinced that we are unlikely to hear another story just like this before the Fall leaves give way to snow.

News of Ferrell’s killing broke as I sat in a Paris airport ending my first trip to France. Throughout my weeklong excursion, a line from Jay Z and Kanye’s 2012 hit with the title that you don’t say in mixed company played over in my head: “We ain’t supposed to be here.” I can’t help but to wonder…just where are we supposed to be? For Jonathan Ferrell, it certainly wasn’t North Carolina. It wasn’t knocking on a neighbor’s door and expecting to be treated with some level of human kindness after surviving a car wreck.

Perhaps he wasn’t supposed to be alive after all.

Jamilah Lemieux is the News and Lifestyle Editor for EBONY.com. Views expressed in The Beautiful Struggler are her own. Tweet her @jamilahlemieux

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4 thoughts on “Jonathan Ferrell: Supposed to Die? (Participation)

  1. From this incident i feel like the officer has a lot against blacks because he was probably scared. I wouldn’t doubt that the officers parents grew up in the past when slavery and racial criticism happened. The fear of the officer bounced back at him and had him arrested which should of happened. But what I don’t understand is that why in the world did the home owner not see him in critical condition after an accident? It is not fair to get the wrong picture without figuring out if he or she was actually a threat.

  2. I am wondering why the women Jonathan went to for help did not notice that he clearly needed medical attention; instead she called in a robbery. Also I would have liked to know what the officer was thinking and feeling when he shot Jonathan to death. Did he know Jonathan had done nothing wrong but since he was black, just assumed he did?; or Did he honestly believe that Jonathan was a bad person trying to harm others?
    People in society today love to assume and make ridiculous predictions about something or someone that they know nothing about! In this instance the police officer was so focused on one aspect of the situation instead of pausing and taking a look at the big picture. He assumed that Jonathan was a bad person, when in reality he was the victim who needed help.

  3. I honestly cannot figure out a reasonable potential thought process of the woman. If Jonathan had been in that bad of shape, and was simply knocking on the front door, why would that be the conclusion she automatically jumped to? Because they’re in North Carolina? Has she heard too many horror stories about how horrible and violent minorities are? Even the police officer, who I can understand being disconcerted (a man who was reported breaking into someone’s house was running at him, after all), should have noticed something was wrong with him. But instead Jonathan’s cry for help was met with someone who had been taught through society, through the media, through something that I don’t know, to fear black men. To not look at these people as individual people, but as natural criminals, violent, and someone who would have hurt him. While justice of the killer might stave a lot of backlash from this incident, it’s not going to heal the underlying sickness of the overall system that caused it. It’s not going to prevent incidents like this from happening again.

  4. John Ferrell was in an accident, so he was most likely banged up, bruised and bloody. My first instinct when I see someone like that is they might be hurt they need help. Of course you get scared because seeing someone like that isn’t pleasant but I wouldn’t think they were breaking in if they were knocking. I don’t understand the women’s thought process where in the hell did she get burglary from a man who clearly looks injured knocking? Then the officer Randall Kerrick decides he’s going to shoot a man who looks once again injured and was probably begging for help. He isn’t armed, he’s just running towards the officers asking for some assistance and he loses his life. Has someone asked the officer what was his motive in firing his gun. Even if he was a burglar he was running towards the officers so they could of just grabbed him and arrested him what was the point of killing him? African American men really don’t have anyone to turn to that can protect them because they’re only seen as the problem and its so sad. The part that really troubles me the most is even if the officer is put in prison and justice is served for Ferrell, that isn’t going to stop officers from shooting another innocent African American male down. Its clear because there have been several shootings and they keep happening the question is who’s next?

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